Benitia AaY

Normalcy & Backbones

Nights like these I wish we’re not spent the way they are. Knowing that a loved one is so far away makes it very hard to find peace well enough peace to sleep. Sounds are different, comfort non existent, trust never reassuring, and hope is all you have to hold onto. You think a lot about “the good ol’ days”. Times when you could roll over and see your loved one fast asleep. Safe. Sometimes not even see them but feel the heat from their body on your back. on your skin. Their breathe on your neck as they snore. Or even the moments your having to fight them for more space on the bed and cover for your body. Lol. NORMALCY. Even the word gives me comfort and heartache at the same time. A sense of normalcy is different for everyone I guess but for me it has always been things that money can not buy or alter. Having a long crazy day of going and watching your significant other play their sport then spending the next day being lazy and watching football games on tv all day. Joking around and laughing until it hurts. Bowling or shooting pool with family and friends together. learning about your significant other and where they grew up. Fighting over whose team is better. or sitting up all night helping each other studying. Doing something you love with someone you love…Normalcy. Once you have it, you feen for it. If you appreciate it, you will yearn for it always. If you don’t appreciate it until you no longer have it, the thought of it makes u sick because you need it. And you know that now after its too late.That sense of normalcy tends to keep you sane. With all the craziness in the world you need that normalcy and a backbone. A backbone is that one person who you look for for support. Someone who when at your weakest moment reminds you your not alone and have someone to fall back on. I don’t care what anyone says, having someone that genuinely loves you and wants to be in your corner is what everyone wants. That LOYALTY. Someone who is faithful to you and the bond that you have. When you are against the world if you have that one person who you know is with you regardless of who it is and will take up for you when you can’t, a backbone, we all want that. Someone that will go just as hard for you as you do for them everyday. Makes all the shit livable. I try to be a realist about things but I’m a female. We all have somewhat of a fairy tale we would like to have. But when you have those two things, for some of us that’s all we need to be happy. That type of happiness money can not buy or replace.